some days i have a myriad of emotions and it is not funny that right now i am very unhappily tired and i can't sleep until i finish my work, make phone calls in the middle of the night to foreign countries where it's morning now, and then do a 3 mins blog b4 i go to bed in hopes of feeling better at the end of this ramble.
you see, yesterday i had crabs. awesome marvelous crabs which the mother ate so little of, i was literally stuffing myself silly with crabs. and then i was feeling SO SATISFIED like i haven't been this satisfied with myself in a looong time. and then a random thought came into my head that maaaybe my aunt is reading this blog. and i'm like SHIT. but watever i got nothing to hide. then 2 more random thoughts flew past my head and i was like -_- and then i thought of my cousin who was missing out on alll the crabs because i forgot to call her after her last paper.
and i was satisfied. for a while. until we spent close to an hour going diff places to get specifically porridge for my bro's dinner. and FOR GOODNESS SAKE i'm not even talking to him. and he bloody had the nerve to show me his charcoal face when we got back. OK FINE. so i showered, and realized i got work to do. work which i can't do without email access until i get home. so i'm like fuck man i slept from 2am to 6am. and headed out to the temple before another round of torturous meeting.
and by torturous meetings, i mean it's so painful that I AM SO DARN PROUD OF MYSELF for surviving it after 4 hours of sleep. i am in this phase of constantly reminding myself that hey, i'm paid to be a wallpaper in meetings i make no contributions to, except update my bosses who are not there, so that they can mitigate IF a problem occurs. and by problem, i mean problems that are so serious it would have escalated direct to my bosses bypassing me.
and so today, i treated myself to a whole loada junk for dinner. ya kun toasts with eggs and tea, then xiang ji pa (the chicken thing YUM YUM), a scoop of oyster mee sua, and my curry puff i'm leaving for breakfast.
now i go to bed hoping for better, more productive non-wallpaper days. and with greater hope, that none of my colleagues find their way here.