since around the period b4 exams, i can't stop having dreams. for pple who know me well, they know that i generally don't like to dream, cuz there's always the chance of a bad dream which i wouldn't like. i'd rather give up on any good dreams. when the bad dream comes, you just have no control over how it'll turn out in the end. i don't like it!

so i've been dreaming since a while ago. and it's alright. but there's this problem. i have absolutely no idea why, i'm getting bad dreams now a days. more specifically, i always dream of someone coming after to kill me. i don't die at the end of my dream, but the whole dream involves how i am constantly running away from being killed.

i just got out of bed, so decided to blog this out, cuz it was one of the more intense dream that i totally did not like -_- i dreamt of this group of guys (malay i think). they managed to capture me in a big room, and accused me of ignoring them in school. BUT, i don't know them at all. there was this anticipation that they were gonna torture me until i die. so the whole time, i was fighting them off, and managed to run away. then i was at a running track pumping petrol and changing tyres for racing cars. (???) then somehow, they managed to find me again. then we ended up in a class room with pple outside the classroom looking in. i was suppose to fist fight anyone who comes into the room. it seems like the only way to keep my life, was to fight off every single person who comes challenge me. then pple started tossing coins on the floor betting that i'll lose on my first round. all over the dream, there were pple helping me fight off these bad guys trying to kill me. but in the end, i'm still left defending for myself. ok, this is just a brief account of my dream, it's more detailed than this, but i can't remember much :p

of course, i woke up feeling kinda intense, a little anxious. but it went away. and this isn't the first time i'm dreaming of myself running away from death. so i did a bit of research, and here's 2 quotes i got bout my dream:

** "Nearly any dream you have that refers to death, dying or attending a funeral, or the like, pertain to change. Most all the time this change is very dramatic and major. It can be change in your life attitude or emotional balance. These types of dreams can also symbolize confronting fear, usually fear of death or change. Since most of use will agree that death is the ultimate change, and many people fear it. Death dreams are generally big changes and should never be ignored. Sometimes they really do signify death! Another possible symbol of a death dream is threat. Whichever suits the dream depends on how well the theme was arrived at. Most death dreams are about major change and not about literal death though, so don't panic if you have one. Just patiently go through the analysis process, and make sense of it."

** "To dream of dying, foretells that you are threatened with evil from a source that has contributed to your former advancement and enjoyment.

To dream that you are going to die, denotes that unfortunate inattention to your affairs will depreciate their value. Illness threatens to damage you also. "

hahaha! ok i totally don't understand them! first of all, i don't have any major change happening in my life, unless it's a change that i'm unaware of. AND i don't feel threatened by any evil source in my life, unless it's sth i'm unaware of too. AND, i don't understand the last interpretation. =D

sheesh. pple who know me, knows i'm a pretty laid back, heck care, everyday ha-ha-ha person. so obviously these intense dreams are damaging my mental health.

i need a psychiatrist. any good recommendations?